Wednesday, February 14, 2007
sigh*...
I have an empty feeling in my heart... Didn't have it till today...
I had a great morning... I wasn't even thinking about Valentine's Day much.
Then during Lessons... My friends asked me if I had a date...
"Tuck Wai, you got a date?"...
"No, I have someone in mind"...
"C'mon man! Dun be a pussy!"
"I dunno..."
After a few minutes, I sent a message to "her"...
"Will you be my valentine?" was all it contained... yet it held so much meaning, so much power...
1 hour passed by... Still nothing...
2 hours passed by... Still nothing...
3 hours passed by... Still nothing...
"ZZZZ!" my handphone buzzed! I whipped it out in sheer excitement, but to my disappointment, it was a message from Singtel.
4 hours passed by... Still nothing from "her"...
5 hours passed by... It was time to go home...
I started to walk home, alone... deciding to avoid my friends. I didn't want them to know much hurt I felt inside me, how much pain I felt in my heart. My heart yearned for the message to come... If it was a "yes" then I would be the happiest man on Earth, if it was a "no", I would be sad but I would be motivated to try for next year... But... No reply came... My heart was left hanging by a thin thread of hope, waiting to be pulled up or dropped into the depths of oblivion... Then pain was unbearable, I could feel it comsume my entire spirit, my soul... my very life force was leaving me...
In the MRT I observe couples talking to each other, girls laughing... giggling... it almost kills me...
The MRT train reached the stop and i got off... I got a call! I took out my phone and checked who was calling... It was my grandmother... she told me i had to walk home by MYSELF. I walked home slowly... "Cry Me a River" played on my walkman... It was raining slightly, rain drops hit my cheeks and slid off my contorted face... Leaves were falling all around me of all different colors... A warm tear slid down my cheek... I could tell it was a tear, it was warm not like all the other cold raindrops...
As I arrived home, no one greeted me... the door was left open and I went up to my room. I shut the door slowly, thinking about what I had done... It was about 5pm... I looked at my computer, turned it on and then tried to hack into it... It didn't work... I sighed... walked up to the wall and banged my head. Once, twice, thrice... No pain... All I could feel was the pain inside... I fell slently onto my bed and cried myself to sleep...
Labels: Love
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
Here are 12 Scientifically Proven Ways to increase your chance of finding a Perfect Partner. ( Yes, academics actually get paid to research interpersonal attraction, as psychologists rather drearily dub this thing called love. ) These findings dispel many cliches beloved of romantic fiction - from opposites attracting to absence making the heart grow fonder - while confirming others. > By MEGAN GRESSOR
1 Like Seed Like
- Look for someone as much like you as possible, because chances are, he or she is looking for you too. We prefer mates with similar backgrounds, interest, values and beliefs because they validate our own. we even gravitate towards people who look like us. Eminent scientist Sir Francis Galton drew attention to this phenomenon a century ago, and since then it has been confirmed by numerous studies on the resemblances between spouses.
2 Declare Your Desire - Ditch the strong and silent act because a major turn-on, according to social psychologist Dr Arthur Aron, is the simple realisation that somone fancies you. It makes you feel good about yourself, which, in turn, overflows into feeling good about them. We warm to those who flatter and are nice to us, which is why the stereotypical Byronic hero trading barbs with his love interest ( until near the end when they eventually melt into one another's arms ) is a romantic cliche that does not bear close examination.
3 The eyes Have It - On one point, however, the bodice rippers are right: there can be such a thing as love at forst sight. It's been shown that the longer a pair of prospective oartners lock eyes upon meeting, the more they like what they see. It helps if you have dilated pupils because these are the single most attractive physical attricute, according to research conducted by the late Eckhard Hess, who was a professor at the university of Chicago's psychology department. He found that subjects shown two pictures of a member of the opposite sex - identical except for pupil size - were twice as likely to pick the larger - pupils photo as the more attractive, even when they could not spot the difference. Enlarged pupils signal intense arousal. 4 Body Language
- Run out of sweet nothings to say? Fall back on body language, a form of non-verbal communication understood by both sexes. The most obvious - and effective - overture is simply staring at the prospective partner and smiling; then there are "preening" gestures, such as playing with your hair.
-According to Allan Pease, author of the Definitive Guide to Body language, what really turns men on is female "submission" gestures, which includes exposing vulberable areas such as the wrists or neck, as well as the leg twine ( the manoeuvre at which Princess Diana, that premier flirt, excelled: it involves crossing the legs and hooking the upper leg's foot behind the lower leg's ankle ).
-Men typically make themselves look more dominant by taking up space and engaging in "crotch display" - thumbs hooked in pockets, fingers "pointing" at the genitals ( worked for Michael Jackson... For a while anyway ).
5 Be Beautiful
- Ignore everything your mum told you about inner beauty - good-looking people are almost universally viewed as smarter, sexier and more successful than their homelier counterparts.
-According to evolutionary social theorists, we value those attributes that improve the chances of successful reproduction, which is why men prefer younger women with long, shiny hair and hip measurements a third larger than their waists ( all markers of youth, health and fertility ), while women prefer taller, older men because they're most likely to have the most resources to invest in offspring.
6 Home Is Where It's At
- Forget about long-distance romances: proximity rules. Being situated close to your potential love object - whether at the desk or in the next street - ensures repeated exposure, beneficial because the more we see someone, the more we like them ( unless we strongly disliked them at first exposure, in which case the opposite is true ). That's why we so often end up with workmates or the boy/girl nxt door.
7 Avoid Comparisons
-All that said, it seems that we gauge prospective partners against prevailing norms, if the findings of Sara Gutierres and Douglas Kenrick of Arizona State University's Psychology department are to be believed. The researchers asked men to rate their dates' looks after viewing Playboy centerfolds pr watching a TV show with pretty female stars. You guessed it: the dates rated worse after the show or centerfolds than before.
-This demonstrates a phenomenon called the contrast effect, whereby our perception of relative differences is distorted according to the order in which things are viewed. For example, if you look at a dark object after a light one, it will appear much darker than if you'd looked at it first or by itself.
8 Love At First Fright
In the 1994 film Speed, Sandra Bullock tells Keanu Reeves, "I've heard relationships based on intense experiences never work out," to which he replies, "We'll have to base ours on ***, then."
The truth
Ya I'll type the rest another day... bored...
Labels: Love
Sunday, February 11, 2007
If your birthday is on......
December 23rd~ January 1st = Red
January 2nd ~ January 11th = Orange
January 12th ~ January 24th = Yellow
January 25th ~ February 3rd = Pink
February 4th ~ February 8th = Blue
February 9th ~ February 18th = Green
February 19th ~ February 28th = Brown
March 1st ~ March 10th = Aqua
March 11th ~ March 20th = Lime
March 21st = Black
March 22nd ~ March 31st = Purple
April 1st ~ April 10th = Navy
April 11th ~ April 20th = Silver
April 21st ~ April 30th = White
May 1st ~ May 14th = Blue
May 15th ~ May 24th = Gold
May 25th ~ June 3rd= Cream
June 4th ~ June 13th = Grey
June 14th ~ June 23rd = Maroon
June 24th = Grey
June 25th ~ July 4th = Red
July 5th ~ July 14th = Orange
July 15th ~ July 25th = Yellow
July 26th ~ August 4th = Pink
August 5th ~ August 13th = Blue
August 14th ~ August 23rd = Green August 24th ~ September 2nd = Brown
September 3rd ~ September 12th = Aqua
September 13th ~ September 22nd = Lime
September 23rd = Olive
September 24th ~October 3rd = Purple
October 4th ~ October 13th = Navy
October 14th ~ October 23rd = Silver
October 24th ~November 11th = White
November 12th ~ November 21st = Gold
November 22nd ~ December 1st = Cream
December 2nd ~ December 11th = Grey
December 12th~ December 21st = Maroon
December 22nd = Teal
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*RED*
Cute and lovable type, You are picky but always in
love... and liked to be loved. Fresh and cheerful,
but can be "moody" at times. Capable with people
nice, soft, and that can love you for the way you
are. Likes people that are easy to talk to, and can
make you feel comfortable.
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*CREAM*
Competitive and sportive. Don't like losing and
always cheerful! You are trustworthy, and very
out
going. You choose love carefully, and don't fall in
love easily. But once you find the right one, you
don't let go or a long time.
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*TEAL*
You are mostly interested in your looks. And have
high standards in picking love. You think and make
a solution precisely, and hardly make stupid
mistakes. You like to lead, and is easy for you to
make new friends.
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*GREY*
You are attractive, and active. You never hide
your
feelings, and express everything that's inside. But
can be selfish at times. You want to be noticed,
and don't like to be treated unequally. You can
brighten up peoples day. You know what to say at
the right time, and you have a good sense of
humor.
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*GREEN*
You get along well with new people. You are not
really a shy person, but sometimes you can hurt
people's feelings by your words... You like to be
loved and noticed by your lover, but mostly you are
single, waiting for the right person. ----------------------------------------------------------
*GOLD*
You know what's right and what's wrong. You are
cheerful and out going. It's hard for you to find the
one you want, but once you find the right person,
you won't be able to fall in love again for a long
time.
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*PINK*
You are always trying your best in everything, and
like to help and care for other people. But you are
not easily satisfied. You have negative thoughts,
and you look for romantic love like in a fairytale.
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*YELLOW*
You are sweet and innocent. Trusted by many
people, and have a strong leadership towards
relationships. You make good decision and make
the right choice at the right time. And always
dreaming of romantic relationship.
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*MAROON*
You are intelligent, and know what's right. You like
to make things go your way, which can
sometimes cause trouble for not thinking about
other people's feelings. But you be patient when it
comes to love... Once you get a hold of the right
person, it's hard for you to find a better love.
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*ORANGE*
You are responsible for your own actions, and
you
know how to treat people.You always have goals
to reach and you really work hard to get there, you
are competitive. Your friends are really important to
you and you appreciate what you have, you
sometimes over react that's because you are
sensitive.
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*PURPLE*
You are mysterious, never selfish and get
interested in things easily. Your day can be sad or
happy depending on your mood. You are popular
between friends but you can act stupid at times,
and forget things easily. You go for a person that's
trustworthy.
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*LIME*
You are calm, but easily stressed out. You get
jealous easily, and complain over little things. You
can't get stuck into one thing, but you have a
capable personality for everyone to trust you and
like you.
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*SILVER*
You are imaginative and fun, you love trying new
things. You like to challenge yourself and you
learn things easily, you're easy to talk to and you
give good advice. When comes to friendship, you
find it hard to trust someone, but once you find the
right friend, you trust them forever.
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*BLACK*
You are challenging, and have the "guts". But you
don't like changes in your life. And once you make
a decision, you keep it that way for a long time.
Your love life is also challenging, and different.
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*OLIVE*
You are warm and light hearted. You seem to flow
well with friends and family. You don't like violence
and know what's right. You are kind and cheerful,
but don't envy other people easily.
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*BROWN*
You are active and sportive. It's hard for other
people to become close with you, but you fall in
love easily. But once you find out you can't get
something, you give up and let go easily as well.
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*BLUE*
You may have low self-esteem, and can be very
picky. You are artistic and like to fall in love, but
you let your love pass by, by loving with your
mind,
not your heart.
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*NAVY*
You are attractive, and love your life. You have a
strong feeling towards everything. And very easily
distracted. Once you get angry at someone, its
hard for you to forgive them.
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*WHITE*
You dream and have goals in your life. You get
jealous easily and you don't react to things easily.
You are different and sometimes weird, but
everyone loves that in you.
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*AQUA*
Your feelings change suddenly and easily. You
are
always lonely, and like traveling. You are truthful,
but listen and believe other people too easily. It's
hard to find love for you, and get lost in love
easily.
Sometimes get hurt by love
Labels: Life
